Why So Serious?
It is more than often that my family members, closest friends, or love interests have called me sensitive or defensive! Why do I always seem so quick to defend myself, sometimes even when the person did not mean to offend me? lol
Well, to people in general, I am not this way. I usually only find myself “snapping” on the people who I spend most of my time with.
So, about this “sensitivity” or “defensiveness” they accuse me of… Today I was having a mini heart-to-heart with my mom — as we often do over the phone at least once a week, and she was just telling me how blessed she feels to have two beautiful, intelligent, loving daughters as a result of her first marriage which was not-so-loving. (AWWWW, I know right.) So then she goes on to describe to me this attitude she had with certain people while she was pregnant with me in particular! She said she was always on defense! Especially with her mother-in-law who called her names, like “foreigner.” I am sure that it was hurtful 24 years ago, but we can laugh about it now that God has blessed us with a new life full of love. But then she says: THAT’S WHY YOU’RE ALWAYS SO DEFENSIVE NOW! lol…. Then it clicked….
..I get it from my mama!
P.S. My middle name – Dikesela – is Palauan for “lady of inheritance.” That explains it all!