My Employee Evaluation
A couple weeks ago, I was evaluated at my job. I have been working there for going on two years, so I felt like my evaluation would be “alright.” But then I began asking myself how I would rate myself at the office. And I started to realize that the district manager is generally not the type to sugar-coat anything. If she sees something that needs improvement, she will definitely say so. So then I started worrying about what I thought she might tell me! Will she tell me that I have a problem staying focused? Will she tell me that I need to work on my time-management skills? Will she tell me that for an employee that has been working there this long I should have more knowledge about what I’m doing than what I have? I didn’t know what to think anymore!
I walked calmly into her office but inside I was a little nervous, lol. I peeked at the rubric and I was excited and relieved to see several marks in the “exceeds expectations” column! *FIST PUMP* The only thing I got marked off in the “needs improvement” column was the row that read “good judgment.” She explained to me that my only downfall was that I second guess myself too much. She said I have great skills but that I need to have more confidence in my own decisions and stop relying so heavily on guidance from management. And I guess she is right! I never realized that. While making judgments about how much money to loan someone based on how stable they are financially and based on the value and condition of their vehicle, I make a decision but at the end I guess I sort of back down and look to the assistant manager for final approval, even if I don’t need it… Or I ask questions I already know the answer to because I’m so afraid I’ll make a mistake or get something wrong.
I have been trying to work on this lately, because while this is true at work, this is also true in my life! I need to realize that I have what it takes and that I can do any task laid in front of me. The only thing I’m missing is the confidence I suppose…
I CAN DO THIS! *smile* Time to show and prove. A lack of confidence in our abilities and important decisions can hold us back from alot of things in life. I’d rather regret doing something than regret not doing it. GO FOR IT!